Hurt

Exams are still going on, but Tatsuya had an emotional outburst. Too hard to be swallowed. Too bitter to be told aloud. That’s why a poem outlet.


Hurt


A deep shaking down my heart,
Like quakes, soft tremors,
Going hard,
Shattering hearts with
Knives of broken trust—-
Like pieces of glass.
Awful rumours,
Swallowed hard,
False believes, false myths,
Dreams rust—
In this awful cage of reality.


I am hurt—
Like a wounded bird,
Can’t sing, can’t dream, can’t tell.
Hopes fell,
Trust fell,
All gone down, down the life’s well.
It hurts
When people you care turn back,
Stare you cold looks
Throw in their black books—
Just because of an unknown mistake.
Can’t take,
Pleading help from myself to recover
A cold feeling nobody cares,
A forbidding feeling that never lets me dare
To go out and seek the world.


He wanted to ask, what did you do when someone you really care turned back?
And I apologise to anyone whose feelings I’ve hurt for my delayed responses. Everything is going so muddled for me…

P.S. Would you please tell me, do I sound too “fake”? Do I seem too emotional?

79 thoughts on “Hurt

  1. Sophie, you don’t sound too emotional at all! And you know rumors are just rumors. They should never get a hold of us and define who we really are. Some people start rumors because they are unhappy with themselves and are jealous when others are doing better than they. I agree with the others love yourself and don’t worry about what other people think about you. You know the truth about yourself. you are worthy! You are beautiful! You are smart. That’s all that matters. You have friends on here who love you. And as always I am an email away. I’m always here to talk. Love Mama Renee. πŸ’œπŸŒ»πŸ€—

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    1. Thank you so much dear Renee! You are always so kind and loving…
      I am afraid, I have left my mail for good. Every time I opened up, it hurted. But if I would ever feel lone, I would comment you right away. Thank you so much for being beside me again and helping to encourage me… πŸ’•βœ¨
      Lots of love to you xxx

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      1. There is One who we can always talk to, who will never judge us, will never tell our secrets. And loves us just the way we are-flaws and all….He is just a prayer awayβ€”Jesus. And you are always welcome. Sorry someone has ruined your being able to email… not everyone has good intentions in this world. You will learn to see people’s motives as you get older. Not trust people who bring you down. We all need positive input. Hope you have a great day! πŸ˜πŸ’œ

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      2. Thanks a lot, dearest Renee! You are right, we just have to stay away from the negative forces in our life.
        But to be honest, the one about the email one, didn’t have any bad intention, just a bit hurtful. Maybe there was my fault as well, so I don’t really blame that person.
        Anyway, being hurt makes you stronger and every event in our life are just a lesson. Maybe some are harder than others.
        Thanks a lot for hearing me out. πŸ’•

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  2. Not too emotional at all! To not express yourself to the extent of your emotions is being just as untrue. Express it all without holding back. Those that would say those things are not being authentic to themselves! Be Strong! Be the Dragon!πŸ˜‰πŸ˜€πŸŒž

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  3. Well something really similar happened actually 8 years back
    She was my best friend and meant a lot to me
    But turned out I dint mean a lot
    And she ignored me for days even when I kept apologising… I realised she was seeking attention
    That’s when I decided IL never let her over power me ever again
    So we are still friends but I just don’t keep her on pedestal any more!
    Hope this helps in any way
    And tatsuya is strong enough to come out of it πŸ™ŒπŸ½

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    1. Thanks a lot for sharing… I feel warm that there are people similar to me (: well, today, I have overcome the feeling and I really want to thank you deeply for all your words! It really did help in many, many ways. You are really strong and inspiring!
      πŸ’•I hate these attention seeking people…
      Seeking you much love and warm regards!

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      1. Yaya❀️❀️
        Also always remember the ones who truely love you will always ask for the reason behind you doing whatever you did and try to understand where u come from… just have a pure heart and you will come across similar pure hearted people for sure β˜ƒοΈ

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      2. Oh dear… Thank you so much πŸ˜ƒ πŸ’•
        You do seem a very nice person yourself and I can relate a lot to you xx
        We are both INFP so I guess, we have a lot in common… Big dreams, big faith. πŸ˜ƒπŸ’•

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  4. Oh dearest Sophie you are so refreshingly authentic ….. that’s one of the many beautiful qualities you possess ….. we celebrate you for who you truly are! MUCH LOVE, Dearest Sweetest Dragon Warrior! β€οΈπŸ’•β€οΈπŸ’•β€οΈπŸ’•β€οΈπŸ’•β€οΈπŸ’•

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      1. Oh Sophie Dearest, you ARE special!!! Sooooo Happy you’re back yay!!!!! πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸŒ·πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸŒ·

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  5. Is everything fine miss warrior. The poetry is amazing and the meaning is deep but it seems that you are in depression. With shattered dreams and mind. I hope for the best. Well, if you don’t mind is this based on a true incident. Stay healthy and may god support you.
    Warm regards with a cup of coffee,
    William Johnson

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    1. Thank you so much for your care William! I am really touched!
      Well I was a bit sad, and hurt, and to stop my tears or anyone knowing my feelings, I poured out everything in the poem.
      It’s based on my feelings… Thank you so much again πŸ˜ƒ

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  6. Wonderfully written Sophie, true words that are coming from the heart, they make for the best of poems. I hope all is well with you now and troubles in the past. Keep writing, always from the heart. Muffin meows hi.πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜Ί

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